My heart is fucking BROKEN, don’t you understand? I put my hopes and dreams and faith in UC Davis and it all fell through and it’s just one more thing I refuse to accept. I CAN’T HANDLE EVERYTHING IN THE WHOLE GOD DAMN WORLD AND THAT’S WHAT PEOPLE ARE EXPECTING ME TO DO.
My heart is BROKEN. I don’t care that everyone thinks that there will be good that comes out of it. I DON’T CARE. I don’t want to go there, so far away from everything. I don’t care that my sister and my nephew live twenty minutes away from the university, I DON’T CARE. I want what I want and I never get what I want no matter how hard I work.
I’M NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR WHAT I WANT. I WANT TO CRAWL AWAY AND DIE, DOESN’T ANYONE UNDERSTAND?
